The Day I Found Out We Needed IVF
“Like when the moment is so big that you’re frozen and time stands still. it was one of those moments.”
I remember so clearly the moment we found out we needed IVF. You know one of those vivid memories where are all the details and sharp are clear. But also one of those moments where the world goes silent and stops spinning. Like when the moment is so big that you’re frozen and time stands still. it was one of those moments.
It was early one morning and I was about to go in for a full day of fertility patients. My husband had an early morning Dr’s appointment with his GP to go over a semen analysis he had done. We weren’t trying for a baby yet, but because of a medical history he had we decided it was a good idea to get it checked out because as it was happening I had a lot of my own patients recently who had a similar medical history.
As soon as I heard his voice I knew that something wasn’t right.
The Dr had thought there was either a significant lab errory or otherwise the results were obvious, IVF was our only chance of a biological family.
It was such a big shock for us both. I can’t speak on behalf of my husband’s feelings but I know that I was scared that it might never happen, in shock that this was really happening and immediately started grieiving for moments that we might never get.
I’m sure I cried for 48 hours. I can actually remember being on the floor at the back of the church on the Gold Coast while church was on- just sobbing. You know those silent tears when your body is shaking but no noise comes out. I’m sure it wasn’t pretty!
There’s so much more to the rest of this story. It took us years to be ready for IVF, multiple cycles in both Australia and the Middle East but we did end up conceiving our family. And we now have 3 healthy daughters.
The road was definitely not completely easy yet I can also say I wildly enjoyed parts of IVF.
Today, I just want to be a friendly voice on the internet that says reach out if you’ve recently had similar news about needing IVF, or if you’re feeling scared about what’s in front of you with IVF. Sure in time, I can also be here to support you clinically to prepare for your IVF cycle but right now if you just need a space to share some thoughts. please reach out. You are not alone in this big feeling and I can completely relate.
